June 2015

Fathers Day in Sacrament- all the Primary kids went up to sing their special song and Carson wiggled himself over to the mic and pulled it down and said "I'd like to bear my testimony..." and then someone hurried and turned the mic off before they sang their song :) not a shy kid!! C "my teeth are kinda like sharp knives" (while eating dinner) P " Yeeesssss (with a lisp) I YOOOOVVVEE IT!!!" Whenever we suggest doing or eating something good. He will say this and run and give us a hug around the legs :) and jump up and down afterwards. His CUTE chubby body! Such strength! P "smeelll" he breathes out of his nose a lot when he uses the "M" noise.

better late than never

Man...it's hard to wrap my brain around the fact that it's been almost a Y.E.A.R since I last blogged...I have a feeling time will only go by more quickly...which is sad... what can ya do, right? This year has been a great one for me. Chuck and I have really gotten the ball rolling with our music talents combined. From what used to be just a 30-45 min guitar lessons once a week- it has turned into a 2 lessons a week for 3 hours each recording in his studio. This has turned into a dream. I can't help but think that the timing of it all is just too perfect and we both feel like it's a little "too perfect" for the timing of him and I in our individual lives. We both are excited to see where this leads. Who knows! All I know is that I feel so fulfilled! I love being a stay-at-home mom, but I LOVE and crave the time I get to record and improve on my talent and to have some "me" time. I feel so lucky to have found Chuck- who, not only is an amazing guitar player, but a very talented songwriter who just so happens to own a 65,000 recording studio in his apartment and can play drums and can produce music into something amazing who just so happened to be looking for the perfect voice to help him further in his music... and then there's me who has a voice and was wondering if it was too much to ask for Heavenly Father to find someone who had everything else that I was needing...then we met. :) We are in the process of recording 5-6 covers and putting them on itunes/youtube ect and then doing a kickstarter campaign to help raise $5,000 so that I can get my album produced through him. We have 6 + songs that we have written together that are amazing. I'm so thankful that Stephen is working from home and has such a flexible schedule that he is able to watch our babies while I'm done for the afternoons 2 days a week. There are a few things I know for sure: 1- I love being a mom and taking care of my kids 2- Music needs to be a main part of my life 3- God gave me my voice and I want to share it with the world to bring wholesome, uplifting, aiding music to people 4- I don't want my music career to override my role as a mother 5- If my kids want to be home schooled and I have a sister or a good nanny who I can pay to travel with us all over the world- I would entertain the thought of pursuing my music with my family with me...but I wouldn't ever want to leave them for months on end. This year has been kinda tough of Stephen, career-wise. He has unofficially decided not to go into business with Ben anymore and this industry is so unpredictable. We want to settle down here in Texas (mainly because of the possibilities with Chuck...and we like it here- cheaper housing, Dru and Liz live down the street and our kids are best friends, we like our ward ect.). Stephen is trying to get into some apartments in Rexburg but hasn't had any luck finding the owners and getting a hold of them. I'm praying that the Lord opens up doors of opportunity for Stephen to do whatever it is he wants/needs to do to 1-feel fulfilled 2-allowe us to settle where we choose 3- allow him to use his creativity and provide for us. I think it's hard for Stephen to see me so excited and having a plan with my music- when he wants that plan too. It's been tough... The kids!. ... Man are they cute and growing. Patrick is copying everything Carson does and most of the time it's mimmicking him when he's being defiant, hitting, screaming ect. The joys :) They do play really well together often though! The more I see them playing and chasing and tickling and jumping on the trampoline together by themselves- the more grateful I am that we had them close together. Man, was it hard...and man, did I almost go into a depression...but the Lord picked me up with meeting Chuck. Here are some funny things I've been keeping track of in my phone that I want to remember: Early in 2015 (carson 4, patrick 2) Carson: "Patrick, you need to stop crying. It's time to sleep. The sun went down, it's time to close your eyes" Carson: "Merry Christmas, Mom"...after putting up the tree, hug around my neck (heartmelt moment) Carson: "Gas lives in a car" - while I was filling up gas Dec 19th 2014 Carson: "I had a lotta sleeps"- after napping me: "Patrick, I love you"... Patrick: "What'd you say?" Jan 5th: Skyping Sarah: "I'm not Carson, I'm max. I'm almost four and I like bones" Jan 6th 8am: Carson: "Dad, what's mommy doing?" me: "I'm reading scriptures" Carson: Oh...is she going night night again?" Jan 8th: I'm picking zits in the bathroom mirror and Carson comes in and copies me. :) Jan 12th: Carson: "Mom, you need to get up (7:32am)...because I wanna watch bob the builder. " Me: "I need to take a shower" C: "you all sweaty?" M: "No, my hair is just dirty" C: "You peeped on it??" Jan 22nd: I took the boys to get a mole removed from my leg. I was laying on the table face down and Carson said: "It'll be ok. You'll be alright" while tickling my legs as I lay there. And Patrick kept saying "You okay mom? U ok mom?" The dermatologiest thought it was the most darling and precious thing ever. Feb 1st: Carson in sharing time in primary at church tells his teacher: "I think I just need a little rest"...and lays on the floor... I come by and pick him up and sit him on my lap...it's 2pm and he's tired...we're singing a song about the earth. I point to the picture and say "look, that's where we live"...and Carson says "Yeah, but there might be wolves in there"... :) Feb 2nd: Patrick said a prayer at breakfast and said "Thank you for Carson and mama and that I'm feeling better..." Carson- "my name is Dumbo" Feb 6th: I was sitting on Carsons little bike for a second and he wanted to push me on it...I told him I was too heavy and he says "but I can do it because I just ate a carrot...so I'm sooo strong!" March 25th: Everytime we change Patricks diaper he said "I see poop" over and over. He laughs when we show him his poopy diaper :) March 25th: We had a horrible day at church with the little ones. During sacrament Patrick pooped and Carson had to poop...so I took both of them out and they were running down the halls wanting me to chase them...I caught Patrick and Carson backtracked into the nursing lounge with us and then after I changed Patrick, Carson ran out and into the mens bathroom and so I couldn't go in with him...so he was screaming and singing on the top of his lungs while Patrick was running in circles right outside next to the door with me. There was a man who left the bathroom and I apologized for my son in there...and he just looked at me and said "that boy has a good set of pipes"...lol...then they didn't wanna go back into the chapel and I had to drag them in screaming...then Patrick scratched a boy in nursery and made his cheek bleed...then Carson ran away from me after church was over and I didn't wanna chase him while carrying a 35 lb baby in heels...so I just went to the car with Patrick and tried to call Stephen on the phone to tell him I didn't have Carson...Stephen walks out without Carson and has to go back inside the building to find him...then the boys didn't wanna eat their dinner and Carson shook the whole container of curry on his dinner plate. He sat there for an hour not eating...we sent him to his room and we had just had it. Patrick was crying for no reason...he wouldn't eat or drink or play...I ended up spanking Carson really hard in his bed when he was screaming so loud for an hour...I spanked him hard and he cried "But MOM!! I DON'T WANNA DIE!!!" :) Our daily routine: 7:30-kids wake up. Stephen always gets them...makes them "chocolate oatmeal"- oatmeal with bananas, flaxseed, JP chocolate complete power and some coconut milk... 8:00- I get up and get myself ready (wash face/contacts/deodorant/bra/pj's back on) The kids are usually great to run around and play in the morning...then I usually get them out of the house...library on tuesdays, preschool on wednesdays, park ect. 1:00- lunch- carrotts/veggies and hummus ect. 1:30 naps for both. Patrick sleeps in his bed, Carson sleeps in mine. 3:30 movie time 4 or 5:00 dinner jump on tramp/run around living room/stories/brush teeth/pj's 7:30/8:00pm bed I'm so grateful for my babies. They are beautiful and Carson's hair is growing out from the horrible job I did cutting it back in December. I had a lady fix it and she chopped it :( Now it's getting it's strong curls back- especially in this april weather of rain and humidity :) Patrick's hair has really grown too! It's long and silky straight. Both bleach blonds with the most beautiful blue eyes and button noses and perfect skin complexions. Patrick loves to laugh and Carson loves to be funny. Two peas in a pod :)